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I don't know if you care...or even if I may ever see any of you again right now,I might be leaving or staying...it is not mine to decide. I'm writing one last time just so that if anyone else wonders where i might have gone they may be able to understand. Things in my life are not going well...but it is not what is happeneing directly to me that makes me say that, it's what is going on around me. I may be going away, to where i can not possibly determine. everyone around me has thier own feelings behind this as well, it makes things harder for me. Even though they put smiles on and pretend things will get better...i know life to well by now to think for even one second thing could ever improve. I won't tell you the details..they are not important...only what the result may be is. It has put stress ony me in more than one way and I want to rest...but for now i must see the outcome. Even if this never gets read it stands as a testament to the reality of things around me. I would not be sad if we left...I don't have that many people to say goodye to who might actually care...i'm only sad that if i do my feelings may go unspoken, but that is for another time. I sometimes feel...lonely...living this shallow life...but if i get to attached to anything or anyone...it gets torn away from me, that is why I have hid my inner self from you. Whether I appear depressed or overcheerful to any of you who read this...i'm sorry...I am...different...I have so many emotions that flow through my mind and sometimes i may take them out on you.-Denizen Of Darkness-