It's been awhile since I have wrote in a journal.
Well-how do I start?
My boyfriend for the two years has not called me in over a month.
The last time I talked to him-he had to go-and he 'promised' that
he would call back. Never did. You can't help but think-is there something
wrong with me? Am I that ugly? Am I that horrible?
Anyways I have been really emotional lately-I mean stupid emotional-
crying at almost every movie I see-along with music videos, TV, and some
commericals. I just can't help it when seeing beautiful models on TV and sappy love scenes.
Makes me want to put a bullet in my head.
Ok this is the bad part-and only you-who reads this will know-because I have not told anyone about it. One night I was really depressed about my ex, Andy. And I got a little drunk--my friend, who is a guy drove me to his house because he did not want me to be alone. Well I started crying and started to pull my hair out, or so I was told. So he pinned me down at tried to calm me down only for it to turn into something..worse. Yes-we had sex. And the bad news is that..I might be pregnant...I cried for hours on end because I thought I would be pregnant with Andy's baby not his. And the worst part is that Andy does not know-but than again should be know? Does he have the right? He does not call me-meaning that he must not care! I want to forgot about Andy but I can't...I love him.
Help?
XOXO
[Helena]
Currently Listening To:
HIM / Under The Rose
Well-how do I start?
My boyfriend for the two years has not called me in over a month.
The last time I talked to him-he had to go-and he 'promised' that
he would call back. Never did. You can't help but think-is there something
wrong with me? Am I that ugly? Am I that horrible?
Anyways I have been really emotional lately-I mean stupid emotional-
crying at almost every movie I see-along with music videos, TV, and some
commericals. I just can't help it when seeing beautiful models on TV and sappy love scenes.
Makes me want to put a bullet in my head.
Ok this is the bad part-and only you-who reads this will know-because I have not told anyone about it. One night I was really depressed about my ex, Andy. And I got a little drunk--my friend, who is a guy drove me to his house because he did not want me to be alone. Well I started crying and started to pull my hair out, or so I was told. So he pinned me down at tried to calm me down only for it to turn into something..worse. Yes-we had sex. And the bad news is that..I might be pregnant...I cried for hours on end because I thought I would be pregnant with Andy's baby not his. And the worst part is that Andy does not know-but than again should be know? Does he have the right? He does not call me-meaning that he must not care! I want to forgot about Andy but I can't...I love him.
Help?
XOXO
[Helena]
Currently Listening To:
HIM / Under The Rose
