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I am thankful for my faith in God and Jesus. They will always lend me Their strength every day. In small things, They always remind me that They are always here as well as inside my own heart. They teach me how to love, how to be humble, forgive, patience, acceptable and so many good things. I know that I always mess up. I know I sin. I know I stray. All this... I am human so I am not perfect. I make mistakes. But I know that God and Jesus will always love me and will always forgive me. They are like my fathers I never had. I am sure They will have their "shake their heads" moments with me or be disappointed. But it doesn't stop me from loving Them so much with all my heart and soul. I cannot live without Them. Because without Them, my life is meaningless and worthless. What to live for? No, I live because God and Jesus give me reasons to live. They give me hope. Light within the darkness... like little candles lit along the way to show me the path out of the darkness. God and Jesus... Thank you. To be honest, I may never understand why I was born deaf in the whole hearing family so... communication with them always give me issues and problems and make me so lonely and cranky...Anyway I know You always have a plan for me. I don't know what it is yet. But maybe someday it'll all revealed to me and then I will finally understand. For now, I am going to try my best to follow You all the way until the end and beyond in the eternal life. I will always believe in You when nobody else would. I love You. Thank you for being my Fathers, Savior, Teacher, etc. Thank you for loving me.

I am thankful for my family. My mom, for trying her best. I know I always give you hard time every year on Thanksgiving/Christmas for not interpreting everything people say and feeling like I'm being left out. It's always hard for me. Having nobody to talk to, or nobody to sign with. It's really hard so of course we always fight the same old argument every year. You trying so hard but cannot do two languages at the same time. *sighs* I noticed... if I even try to talk to people with paper and pen... they do at first but then after than they get wrapped up in convos and I ended up left behind. Mom, I think you don't really understand how it is hard for me. But... I understand that you and the family love me. Heck, my Grand aunt made this lovely cake, Cherry Chocolate cake, for me. They prefer pecan and pumpkin pies but they did this for me because they know how much I love chocolate so thank you for loving me. I know communication with me is always difficult. Thank you for being my family. I'm proud of be part of the Porter/Laman clans. Always. I know that having the only deaf member makes it a little bit difficult to communicate so for that, you guys teach me how to be patient with you. I admit I get cranky and get really bored. I will try to be more mature about it and be more patient. I am sorry if I came off as rude earlier when I was more than ready to leave. *sighs* Love you all so much, I truly do. So much that I really want to know what's going on. What you guys talk about even if mom believe that some of the stories aren't my area of interest so she wouldn't interpret for me. Thank you for loving me and accepting me.

And lastly, my beloved online family. I am so thankful to meet each and every of you. It has been almost three years now since I met you guys. Addicus managed to catch my attention in his own ways and I followed on impulse. I am glad I did. It worth it. You guys are wonderful in your own ways. You teach me how to be better. You teach me about my traits that I had no idea I had. Before I met you guys, I didn't experience happiness, tears, laughter, etc. Now I try my best to understand everything you show me. Jokes and puns, silliness and randoms. Calm and adventures. So many things. Every and each of you... Do you know how special and unique you guys are? I love you all so much. I enjoy being close to each one of you, talking to, getting to know better. My beloved Master, Neriah. My beautiful lovely master, what would I do without you? I will follow you all the way to the end faithfully and wholeheartedly. I love you. Thank you for being the most awesome and most best Master ever. I am thankful to be part of your Clan. I am thankful to get to know every and each of you. I'm so proud to be part of it for many years to come. Thank you for everything. Thank you for being patient with me when I have my most derp moments and that doesn't make me very attractive. Thank you.

Happy Thanksgiving! I know I made it a little late but I've wanted to make this happen before the night is over. I love all of you, God, Jesus, rl family, and online family! *mwahmwah*