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how do i always end up here,

so lonely that my heart feels homesick

i'm not supposed to love you, i'm supposed to hate you for all you've done to me

for abandoning me twice without even a warning

yet i can't stop loving you

i begin every summer by hating you and end every summer by missing you

and it doesn't help that my horoscope this month said 'an old romantic partner will contact you'

but you're a gemini too so if i contacted you it would be the same

yet i know if i contact you i will receive what i always receive; nothing

i know you don't ever want to hurt me but that's all you do

and i don't want to hurt anymore