Things are tough. They're probably just gonna get tougher. Generally, I haven't felt much of anything. I guess that's good considering my emotions can be a little out of control. I've sort of given up on making friends. I just don't know what's wrong with me or how to be normal, so I should just worry about other things. I mean, people say that you make friends inevitably, whether you try to or not, but I don't really believe that since its never really happened. All those things that people say happen to everyone don't happen to me lol But I've successfully finished a college cram course and I'm on my way to making a career change that I hope will be fixed for awhile. That course was the most work I've done in a long time and I hope I really get to put that knowledge to the test while I'm out in the "field". Overall, I sort of feel like a different person with the same environment. People think that if you don't progress its because you're being lazy and just not applying yourself. But in my case, I would honestly do much better if I were living with other people or ALONE lol people are always in the way. And I don't think that family should be an exception. It doesn't matter who you are, you need to be responsible for your own s**t and not expect someone else to save you all the time. I mean once or twice isn't terrible, everyone needs help occasionally. But like, some people really do believe the world revolves around them. I've found somewhere else to go, I just hope I don't end up biting off more than I can chew since it will be completely my responsibility. All I can do is hold my breath and dive in.
Sincerely,
Kat
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