Today, March 18, 2021, marks my last day as a night shift caregiver/assistant to my grandfather. After more than 3 months (totaling 4 months including the 3 weeks from 2020) of being in the night shift, I am ready to take my rest.
Just yesterday, the replacement caregiver has just arrived at our home. She will be taking over the night shift duties while our family and another helper will be covering the day shift.
After more than 3 months of no proper, I can finally rest. I will admit, this has been one of the toughest crucibles of my life. As a morning person who has been fighting for years to get just an ounce of rest, this has to be one of the most unpleasant and ironic experiences of my life. It certainly brought out the worst in me but amidst all that, I think it also bought out some of the best. Worst traits included my anger, rage, frustration, jealousy, and hatred. The best traits would probably include patience, resilience, never-ending attempt to adjust, and acceptance amidst unfairness and darkness.
Admittedly, as a physiologically weak person, I have developed the following bad traits:
1. High blood pressure
2. Actual dependence on coffee (headaches if not drunk within the day)
3. A weathered down, aged face laced with eye bags
4. Constant state of dizziness
5. Aching body joints, specifically legs, and knees
6. Constant headaches and eye aches
Probably the greatest experience this situation has brought to me is the fact that I actually explored online dating. As of the moment, I have sent many intros, had 2 barely good connections (Nikko and an unknown lol), a better connection (Aeman), and some of the best right now (Vince and Drew). So I guess I somewhat chatted with quite a lot already in 3 weeks? Is this even considered dating? Who knows (probably someone does) but for me, this will be a new adventure for 2021.
In addition, I was able to build a good support system. With my mental breakdown for the past weeks, I was able to find support with:
1, The Illuminati/Deathly Hallows for Marvel fandoming (Inah, Pat, and Aujen)
2. My Emotional Quartet (Erica, Tin, Elea and Sharms)
And with that, my crucible has ended for now. Onwards to new adventures and hopefully better fortunes for 2021. Really hoping that this year turns out to be good since the start is quite bad. Hopefully this will all be what is bad for this year.
Onwards and ever upwards!
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