Of course...I went over today.
Fatty.
Meh...I went to a sister's house today, her caretaker and daughters and us all went to Walmart. I tried on some swimsuits I wouldn't be allowed to wear otherwise just for the heck of it.
Tiny string bikini top, and bikini bottoms w/a pleated skirt over it.
I looked in the mirror and it made me really happy. =)
Then we went to Jewel.
And that's it.
Meh...everything's so confusing. I do one thing, and I'm commiting this horrible sin. I try to fix it, and everything else threatens to collapse.
I don't know what to do anymore.
I don't want to say this. I really don't...maybe I won't...
No...maybe I will.
Errrgh...I can't.
I don't want it to end. It won't be better that way...not for me.
But maybe...in the long run...it will.
But...that thought scares me.
GAWD I HATE THIS!!!
Yeah, I'm going f*cking crazy.
By the way.
100 lb., baby.
I swear...it probably kept me from doing something stupid just now.
Fatty.
Meh...I went to a sister's house today, her caretaker and daughters and us all went to Walmart. I tried on some swimsuits I wouldn't be allowed to wear otherwise just for the heck of it.
Tiny string bikini top, and bikini bottoms w/a pleated skirt over it.
I looked in the mirror and it made me really happy. =)
Then we went to Jewel.
And that's it.
Meh...everything's so confusing. I do one thing, and I'm commiting this horrible sin. I try to fix it, and everything else threatens to collapse.
I don't know what to do anymore.
I don't want to say this. I really don't...maybe I won't...
No...maybe I will.
Errrgh...I can't.
I don't want it to end. It won't be better that way...not for me.
But maybe...in the long run...it will.
But...that thought scares me.
GAWD I HATE THIS!!!
Yeah, I'm going f*cking crazy.
By the way.
100 lb., baby.
I swear...it probably kept me from doing something stupid just now.
