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i swear it feels like everyone is annoyed my me, like when im talking to a friend and i ask this person questions. they give me short answers. i ask em if there annoyed me by, to like ya know i dont wanna be that person thats annoying cuz if i am hell ill lay off. but no im not. so if im not then freakn talk to me. and then this other chick. shes an old friend and im tryen the best to make her laugh and shes like. i hate to call her this but a total b***h. thease r really the only 2 friends (beside my GF) that i actually talk to. i swear i could be gone for 2 days and they would never notice. its bull s**t man. at first i thought it was depresson. now its like clear to me that nobody wantes me. im all alone. i gess its a good thing. cuz soon as im 18 im getten the ******** out of here an joining the air force. my dream is to become an officer. well realy to be a piolet. but u have to be an officer to fly the planes. and if i do die. very few would miss me. very very few. but this is what i get i gess.