Ok well.. i just got thinking..
Are any of us truly ready for the ramifications of death? Are we truly prepared for death? We think we are, but in reality we arent. When someone close to you dies, you get upset, and wonder why they had to go. But the reality that your never going to see them again dosent really sink in until months after the fact. Anyways what im saying is.. im experienceing this right now. </3 its just really hitting me right now that, my grandfather and I will never share another story, another laugh, another smile, ever again. And it just got to me. I feel guilt.. i feel like i let him down, i should have been there talking and smiling with him as much as i could. My mother always told me to go over and visit him because hes not going to live much longer, and i always thouht.. psh he'll be around forever you know... so i put off visiting always. And now.. hes not there to vist anymore..
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