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I'm having to try and get over a narcissistic, gaslighting ash*ole guy who keeps tricking me into listening to him all the time; but when I need to be heard they ghost me, everytime. And I'm still getting over the abuse.

My mother has more than one tumor in her head and wasn't feeling good during moving, though she's feeling better now so it might have just be stressed but eventually she'll need surgery again.

I ended up getting keys to a new man's place because I really need to be where the best karaoke is and he offered me half rent in the city. I am feeling guilty even though I don't want to be because assh*le was always breaking up with me and I just keep trying to move on but assh*le kept tricking me into sleeping with him and not treating me like a real person, not like my new man has.

But ultimately I still feel single, neither boy has said I'm in a relationship. I don't feel guilty about moving on so quickly. And I get the new place all to myself too, new man has a job overseas and I'll be going half on rent while he's gone, that I'll have for myself to work on myself too. They really trust me so I blocked assh*ole for good, but I'm scared he'll track me down at my favourite karaoke place. If he does I just walk out the door before they say anything.

I'm having issues with getting my medication and don't have any today. Hopefully get it worked out and get meds tomorrow. I'm going to be ok but I can't think straight and I'm very tired.