Ok, so, today I went to the school to paint, but unfortunetly they didnt really need me. And that was alright really. I got to see my friends and walked to Starbucks with Night_Ring. Which was cool. My dad and I went to Kirby Lane and to an Army store where I got an actual officers cap. (Like the one my avatar wears sometimes. Its baddass.) My dad and I were talking about getting a dog, and my dad said, 'Well when your older living with your husband or wife, you can get another dog.'
For a while, I thought my dad had tried to forget I was bisexual, but today I realized that I had made that up. He didnt make himself forget, he remembered and accepted it, which makes me very happy.
Unfortunetly, I was supposed to have a Community Leader training Monday-Wednsday. And I was all pumped up for it and excited. Ready for this wonderful life changing seminar that would help me run the school better, but when I asked our administrator how much it cost, I was a little shocked.
Now, just to paint a picture for you, the tickets for our last fundraiser was $70. To top it off, it costs somewhere around $12,000 to come to my school, and my mom's buisness just went bankrupt, and we are losing our money, and we might have to move soon because we cant pay all the bills. Our pump broke in my house, and I have had to take sponge baths or take a bath in the pool all summer, and the rare occasions that we have enough water for a desent shower, the water presure is close to drizziling.
The training was $450.
Now, if it was an overnight camp like my last one was, or if there was something a little more then a seminar to it then sure, and if it lasted for more then three days, sure. It would be concidered affordable. But even if it was all of those things, there is absolutly no way my family can afford it. At least not now.
All summer I have been sitting at home doing nothing. I went to two camps recently, and that was the most I think I have done all summer. I sit at home on the computer, I havent seen any of my friends from school, and most of this is because my family cant afford a vacation or a trip to Six Flags. My PS2 is has been broken for a couple weeks now, and I havent told my parents yet because I dont want them to have to spend the money to fix it. For about 3 months I have been saving my money for a video game, where some kids dont even have to think about it. I'm too younge to be worrying about my family's finacial problems. I really am. I'm just a kid, I shouldnt have to ask my dad 'I dont know. Is this affodable?' On top of grades and friends and all the other sort of stuff teenagers have to deal with, I shouldnt be worrying about whether or not my parents can take care of me. That should be a givin.
Anyway, whatever. I probably sound really spoiled in this artical. Sorry. I really apreciate everything I have, Its just sometimes I wish I was living without a lot of money my entire life, instead of all of a sudden not even being able to afford to wash my clothes or take a shower.
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