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Life is totally pointless. We waste the best times of our lives...childhood....going to school and wasting our life learning things to easiy get into college...a place where we learn more pointless things for our career...a waste of our adulthodd going everyday all day doing something you really don't like but wasted all your life trying to achieve the chance of doing. and you have to do it to support yourself and those you love. and then when your duty is done and you retire. your body cannot do the things you really want to because you are old and crippled. i don't want to grow up!!! actually i just want to be like peter pan and stay at one age and do whatever i want whenever i want without any worries. i think...since i'm so lazy...i'd like to stay in a beautiful meadow sleeping in the sunshine and reading my favorite books. or i'd run around like a bandit doing whatever and taking whatever and never caring always in danger and adventure. but after a while those things would develop their own problems, because i'm human and humans are stupid and never satisfied and never happy. but vacation all the time would lose its sweetness if we never had hardship i guess. i'm guess i can't be satisfied either...nothing is perfect. and i guess you can have too much of a good thing. i don't think my mood swing is on an optomistic level. also. i would like to make a difference in the world and help human kind, but then i get all pessimistic and feel like humans are stupid asses and aren't worth helping and thqt everyone will find their own happiness and if they can't they don't deserve it. i don't deserve it and i know that unless i become optimistic i won't be happy. i need to be like a happy go lucky gypsy samurai wanderer type person. Fruits Basket got me thinking about some of this.. . and i am not emo or goth or anything like that. they look cool, but i'm not like that.
Happy Go Lucky Traveler!!!