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o-o It's all like... SHABAM! :D
Rant.
"You're so ugly."
"No one could ever love you."
"What is wrong with you? He wasn't looking at you as if you're pretty, he was disgusted!"
"You're repulsive."
"Look at all that FAT!"
"What are you eating? Are you nuts?"
"That's going to make you fat."
"The scars are the only things that make you pretty."
"Stop! The mirror could break."
"No, no, no! You're size is way too big!"

I get so sick of myself.
I tell myself all those things and more.
Constantly.
I hate going in public.
In front of ANYONE [even my brother], I constantly want to know if I look okay.
It's so aggravating.
The main thoughts through my head are how ugly I am.
Pointing out every little flaw.
Afraid to lose control.
So convinced that no one loves me.
That no one could love someone like me.
When I think real hard about love,
I don't belive my parents love me.
I think that is the hardest pain to ever feel.
There's no getting around those models on T.V.
There's no avoiding the prettiest of females these days.
And I want to cry everytime I see another girl.
Because truthfully, I feel like the ugliest girl on Earth.
Augh... You know what?
Who fricken gives a crap?
Ah, doesn't matter.
Stupid insecurities.






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Sarah Made Fresh
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commentCommented on: Tue Jul 15, 2008 @ 04:05am
You shouldnt be standing in the mirror telling yourself the flaws you have you should be telling your self your flawless.
I mean i do the same thing and the my mirror sattered after 2 months of that i think that was a sign for me and i believe that you are most likely not ugly at all.


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