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how come there are so many peopl out there that are lonely? i mean i am loved by cian and my friends but i cant hold cian cause he does not live where i live but that does not mean i dont want to be held hell i really want to be held so what if i am young that does not mean i dont know what love is i have a bit of a clue and i really like it and i want more of it but i cant i fell in love with my best friend. he and i went out then i was dumped by him after he more or less treated me like a thing i have tried to get over it and get on with my life but past feelings seem to be catching up to me and i get lost in them i feel so overwhelmed by them my friends are trying to help me out but it has not worked. i want to do so many thing but i cant do them. i love cian with all my heart and i hope he knows that. every night i dream of what our lives could have been like. they are so sweet and romantic but i have to remember that they are not true and i wake up and feel so bad cause they will never be real but i dont care i will still have them they make me feel better. if you dont understand any of this leave a post behind or even if you do understand