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Everyone..Please..I don't care if you read this or not but I need to let everything that I've been holding inside me out..Anger...Hate..Pain..All that crap..Well. Lately alot of things have been going wrong..I've lot two friends to suicide, I've been raped, almost lot the love of my life, and tongiht, my mom thinks I'm a slut, and tonight, I was betrayed.

Last week, two of my friends commited suicide..Chealsea and Christine...I havn't told anyone but Matt about it..I don't like it when people say "I'm so sorry, I wish there was something I can do." I try to act like there's nothing wrong but I can't keep it up any longeR! Everytime I'm trying to to think about it...Their faces pop up in my mind..

About five weeks ago..I had a 'friend' come over to my house to watch a movie..He was on the couch and I was on the computer, on gaia..Well..He randomly comes over and says...Well..Here's the convo..:
Corey: "What do you wanna do?"
Me: Watch the movie..
Corey: I mean..Do you want to ********..?
Me:Wha...? No..I have a boyfriend..
Corey: He doesn't have to know..-Begins to try and kiss her.-
Me: -Slaps.- Stop!
Corey:..No..-Drags her to the room and YEA.-

That's what happened..I called my friend AR and she came over with my other friend Tyler..We all had a sleep over. Thankfuly I'm not pregnant..

A few weeks ago..Matt randomly tells me he wants to break up for a week..I was extremly upset..I went to my friend's hosue and she cheered me up a bit..When I got back..Mat wanted to end it for good..I was broken hearted..Everytime I thought about him..I cried..I couldn't stand it..Luckily the next day, he called and we got back togeather..

I don't feel like typing this up anymore..for the rest just PM me..