My problems from within have stemmed from years and years of chastisings and teasings, circle beatings, and group 'pep talks' as the kids like to call them.
My public school years taught me that no one other than my family can love me, but the acceptance of another to the degree of love is the drug that i got addicted to without even tasting it. My first taste of it blew me away so much that i had to end it and take a step back to prepare for the next round... yes I am talking about Miranda. I dumped her because I was scared of the pure goodness of the relationship, and the thought that it was to good to be true and losing her made me sick at night so I ended it. I know i'm screwed up... but we are back together now like a few months later, and there is no way that I can be forgivin for the thing I did to her. So now I spend everyday trying to be the best boyfriend I can be.
I love you Miranda.
 CS Echidna · Tue Aug 29, 2006 @ 06:34pm · 0 Comments |
