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llama8o8
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And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
Shorter story
No love no glory
No hero in her sky

I can't take my eyes off of you

I can't take my eyes off of you


I think I lost my sense of self

I don't know what i want to do anymore ...like....with my life

besides you know

what my heart wants


I can be happy with a simple life

I know i can

but that does no good to me



Why do I always have to question myself?
Why can't I just be happy?


Let yourself go Nicole..just LIVE

for god's sake just LIVE



D>>>>>


I stopped taking my meds..and the last ones i took i think fixed the weird anxiety i would have every now and then trying to go to sleep

which proves i need to get a refill SOON for my meds

god damn me





Is this whole weird feeling the reason why I've been drawing like a madman?


every day in each class

i'm drawing

drawing something new

something i dont know what i started out drawing


And i've been quiet a lot irl lately too...Don't know why

tired? tired of what? exhausted from working and school and not being able to just be lazy?

too much on my mind? stressing out because i dont have the time to do my side of the site by tonight?

rachel hasn't said anything

strange rolleyes

i think she's tried/has forgotten about the argument

so what is that supposed to mean?

it means nothing to her but everything to me

i put up a wall because i dont wanna be "controlled" anymore


i was thinking...

does someone's life have to always be thought up with someone else in mind?


if we were still good friends...

and i wanted to move like i do....

was it supposed to be the "right thing" to think about her?

should i have to think about how what i want to do with my life affects someone else?


it's my life..every one needs to leave at one point in time

you cant hold them down and say theyre heartless because theyre not thinking of you

its their life


does that make sense?


a lot of the times i did things because it would make her happy

and it avoided any conflict

was that what i was supposed to do?

apparently it got me NO WHERE

cuz i'm such a horrible friend...horrible person with no appreciation for the world...and who only thinks of themselves rolleyes



my mom's been helping me a lot about that whole situation


it feels nice talking to her like that







i'm done venting...i'm hungry and tired


and sad

but it's because i miss the greatest person to ever come into my life


my cousin wanted to talk to me about jarrod...she was like "so you think he's the one?"

me: redface 3nodding

then we talked about moving and how nice it is everywhere else but here xD

she made me happy with some of the things i've been thinking about....


people aren't meant to stay in one place their whole lives....dont hold us down


so its only natural of me to want to go somewhere else...start a fresh new life somewhere greener


but i'm done venting tonight


i miss my baby something fierce <3


ilu heart






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Bik lusterson
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comment Commented on: Sun Oct 01, 2006 @ 05:58pm
You're right. It's your life and you should do what you want with it. That doesnt make you selfish or a bad person.
It's only natural to miss someone when they're gone but holding them back, THAT'S selfish. You should do what makes you happy.

Cheer up, sugar. <3


comment Commented on: Mon Oct 02, 2006 @ 09:27am
xD! Really been ages since I read your journal. xP So I guess I'll throw my two cents in now. xD!!! I know she isn't ready to let go, then again she hasn't ever been in a real relationship either. So she doesn't understand how you feel. Like you said. She is just thinking about whats practical. Then again, what's practical isn't whats always best. She really needs to understand you are your own person. Just because you two are friends still doesn't mean you both have different plans in life. Dx If she was ever a real friend she would put aside all those petty things she thinks and just be there for you. xP What you really need to do is just take a day off and just lounge around the house doing like nothing! xD!!! You could use that time to think or just do whatever really! xP

Yah though! Remember, no matter what you still have some awesome friends here who will always listen to you! ;D

Also, it is your life. Live it the way you want to! Not the way somebody else wants you to live it! xP

Well okay, that wasn't two cents...was more like a $1.25 ROFL!!!!



iGoD
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The Great Boobah
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comment Commented on: Tue Oct 03, 2006 @ 12:38am
Your baby? redface heart Nice. I miss you too, darlin' So much.

ilu more than anything. <3


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