Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
Shorter story
No love no glory
No hero in her sky
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
Shorter story
No love no glory
No hero in her sky
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I think I lost my sense of self
I don't know what i want to do anymore ...like....with my life
besides you know
what my heart wants
I can be happy with a simple life
I know i can
but that does no good to me
Why do I always have to question myself?
Why can't I just be happy?
Let yourself go Nicole..just LIVE
for god's sake just LIVE
D>>>>>
I stopped taking my meds..and the last ones i took i think fixed the weird anxiety i would have every now and then trying to go to sleep
which proves i need to get a refill SOON for my meds
god damn me
Is this whole weird feeling the reason why I've been drawing like a madman?
every day in each class
i'm drawing
drawing something new
something i dont know what i started out drawing
And i've been quiet a lot irl lately too...Don't know why
tired? tired of what? exhausted from working and school and not being able to just be lazy?
too much on my mind? stressing out because i dont have the time to do my side of the site by tonight?
rachel hasn't said anything
strange rolleyes
i think she's tried/has forgotten about the argument
so what is that supposed to mean?
it means nothing to her but everything to me
i put up a wall because i dont wanna be "controlled" anymore
i was thinking...
does someone's life have to always be thought up with someone else in mind?
if we were still good friends...
and i wanted to move like i do....
was it supposed to be the "right thing" to think about her?
should i have to think about how what i want to do with my life affects someone else?
it's my life..every one needs to leave at one point in time
you cant hold them down and say theyre heartless because theyre not thinking of you
its their life
does that make sense?
a lot of the times i did things because it would make her happy
and it avoided any conflict
was that what i was supposed to do?
apparently it got me NO WHERE
cuz i'm such a horrible friend...horrible person with no appreciation for the world...and who only thinks of themselves rolleyes
my mom's been helping me a lot about that whole situation
it feels nice talking to her like that
i'm done venting...i'm hungry and tired
and sad
but it's because i miss the greatest person to ever come into my life
my cousin wanted to talk to me about jarrod...she was like "so you think he's the one?"
me: redface 3nodding
then we talked about moving and how nice it is everywhere else but here xD
she made me happy with some of the things i've been thinking about....
people aren't meant to stay in one place their whole lives....dont hold us down
so its only natural of me to want to go somewhere else...start a fresh new life somewhere greener
but i'm done venting tonight
i miss my baby something fierce <3
ilu heart
I don't know what i want to do anymore ...like....with my life
besides you know
what my heart wants
I can be happy with a simple life
I know i can
but that does no good to me
Why do I always have to question myself?
Why can't I just be happy?
Let yourself go Nicole..just LIVE
for god's sake just LIVE
D>>>>>
I stopped taking my meds..and the last ones i took i think fixed the weird anxiety i would have every now and then trying to go to sleep
which proves i need to get a refill SOON for my meds
god damn me
Is this whole weird feeling the reason why I've been drawing like a madman?
every day in each class
i'm drawing
drawing something new
something i dont know what i started out drawing
And i've been quiet a lot irl lately too...Don't know why
tired? tired of what? exhausted from working and school and not being able to just be lazy?
too much on my mind? stressing out because i dont have the time to do my side of the site by tonight?
rachel hasn't said anything
strange rolleyes
i think she's tried/has forgotten about the argument
so what is that supposed to mean?
it means nothing to her but everything to me
i put up a wall because i dont wanna be "controlled" anymore
i was thinking...
does someone's life have to always be thought up with someone else in mind?
if we were still good friends...
and i wanted to move like i do....
was it supposed to be the "right thing" to think about her?
should i have to think about how what i want to do with my life affects someone else?
it's my life..every one needs to leave at one point in time
you cant hold them down and say theyre heartless because theyre not thinking of you
its their life
does that make sense?
a lot of the times i did things because it would make her happy
and it avoided any conflict
was that what i was supposed to do?
apparently it got me NO WHERE
cuz i'm such a horrible friend...horrible person with no appreciation for the world...and who only thinks of themselves rolleyes
my mom's been helping me a lot about that whole situation
it feels nice talking to her like that
i'm done venting...i'm hungry and tired
and sad
but it's because i miss the greatest person to ever come into my life
my cousin wanted to talk to me about jarrod...she was like "so you think he's the one?"
me: redface 3nodding
then we talked about moving and how nice it is everywhere else but here xD
she made me happy with some of the things i've been thinking about....
people aren't meant to stay in one place their whole lives....dont hold us down
so its only natural of me to want to go somewhere else...start a fresh new life somewhere greener
but i'm done venting tonight
i miss my baby something fierce <3
ilu heart
Community Member
It's only natural to miss someone when they're gone but holding them back, THAT'S selfish. You should do what makes you happy.
Cheer up, sugar. <3