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"I Can't Even Look You In The Eye"

I dont know how I do this,
Go day by day,
Living in this living hell.
I cant even look you in the eye,
Cause all I can do is cry.
It hurts me so bad
I dont know what to do
I love you so much; this is true
Thats all I know
The rest is just a show.
I pretend everything I do
And everything I say
Just so I can get away.
Away from the questions,
Away from the tormenting.
But obviously it isnt working for me.
This is not how I want it
I dont want to wear a fake smile
I dont want to have to lie.
But I cant do anything else,
Theres nothing left to try.
I wish I could talk to you,
Tell you how I feel
But if you turn away, I know I would never heal.
So this is how my story goes
This is how I live.
I wear this mask,
A mask of lies
Everyday of my life.
I hide my feelings, even though it kills,
Just to keep me from the knife.
But always remember,
I love you more than ever.
You are the one I want to be with,
Be with forever ...