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Last week, there were rumors that Austyn was gonna make out with me, and it all started when Madison spilled the truth. I just wanted Austyn to think that I didn't know that he was, so I just waited and waited until he did... but sadly he never did. I knew that I had to do something to make him do it, without letting him know that I knew...

So yesterday, at the end of the orchestra class, my teacher played this song that I really liked, and I stayed after the bell rang and asked him to make a copy of that song for me, and so did Austyn and this other kid named Augustine. I wanted to kiss Austyn right there, but I knew that Augusting would be watching, so I waited and waited until he left, but he only did when Austyn left.

On that day, I was wearing a new pink shirt with a design at the top, and when Austyn and I were walking in the hallway, he said "You look reallly pretty today" so quietly to make sure that I was the only one who heard. So, I thanked him for complimenting me and we just walked without talking about anything else, but the weird thing is that when I want to talk to Austyn, I can't think of anything good to talk about. So, when we went to different hallways, he gave me a hug and I said to him for the first time "I love you" and he said "I love you, too" and he left. Then I knew right there that hearing him say those word to me for the first time, there was no chance of us breaking up.

Then at the end of the day, I was at my last class and Yesenia came up to me saying that Austyn kissed and hugged Keiana and in my mind I'm like 'but Austyn said that he loved me this morning, and then he's gonna kiss another girl?' And I was mad after that.

Now, this morning, Austyn came into my classroom to give something to my teacher and I didn't know that he was there until one of my classmates looked at me and said "Austyn..." so I banged on my desk to get his attention so I could say 'hi' to him. But he just looked at me. Then when he left, Amanda said that when Austyn came in the room, he smiled and waved at Keiana.

And so, at the next class, Yesenia and Hafsa and I were passing notes and Yesenia started it saying that AUstyn liked Keiana and he was gonna break up with me and she asked me "what are you gonna do about it?" and I said that I was gonna talk to him, and if he doesn't listen to me or say anything at all, then I'll just dump him. Then they said that Austyn wanted a girl who would act liked a girlfriend to me, and that's how I always acted aruond him. but I said that he wasn't doing nothing because he wasn't treating me like a girlfriend. This time, I took my friends advice and decided to dump him before he dumped me. But I knew that It would kill me in the inside and I asked Hafsa and Yesenia to dump Austyn for me.

So, during the next class, none of them were in my class, so I tore a piece of paper from my agenda and explained to Austyn why I'm dumping him and everything... And CJ was in that class, and I thought that maybe he could be the one to give this note to Austyn for me, but he's always joking around with me, and maybe he would look at the note. So after this bell rang, I rushed out of the room and ran to the other side of the school. At the end of the hallway that ran throught my cafeteria, I ran into Kelsey and aksed her to give this note to Austyn for me, then Kelly came up to join us, and I said out loud "Give this to Austyn, Don't open it, and Don't read it, and don't ask questions... but I will tell you what it says" then the looked at me in the eye and i took a deep breath. "I'm dumping him" and I ran off.

So from the next class to the rest of the day, I was crying soo hard!!! I missed Austyn, I don't know why he would like another girl right after he said "I love you" to me. Its weird how it is a friend of mine that he likes, and now I'm really mad because she didn't do anything about it, and I'm mad because she said yes after he asked her out, knowing that knowing that I still loved him a lot

When I got home, I turned on the radio so I could listen to music to get my mind off of Austyn and the new Ciara song came on, and I've never heard it before. So I kept the radio on to listen to the rest of the song, and I figured out that It was a love song. During the whole song, I screeamed Austyn's name over and over in my head and cried again.

Then I decided to change the station and then they played the same song and I punched the radio, actually, I broke it and I stuffed the pillow in my face and screamed and cried harder and harder.

I hate my life now because Austyn doesn't love me anymore!!! crying crying

And now, everytime I hear a love song on the radio, I start thinking about Austyn and I end up crying.

I Quit ill miss you guys
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Commented on: Sat Oct 28, 2006 @ 10:51pm


	i almost cried! good luck with Austyn -Kayla

Commented on: Sun Oct 29, 2006 @ 12:19am


	"I don't know why he would like another girl right after he said "I love you" to me" Boys always say thing they don't mean (girls does more though) don't trust them 100% i should know i'm a guy too (don't comment on that last part)- Julius Phu And girls like you will get more guys (remember my poem). Don't worry you can't let a guy like that ruin a girl you OKAY Now man up (or whatever you girls say)

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Naqix3
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Commented on: Sun Oct 29, 2006 @ 12:21am


	hah... why do you think I don't want relationships anymore?

Commented on: Sun Oct 29, 2006 @ 12:23am


	why are you so obsessed with that guy anyways

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Commented on: Sun Oct 29, 2006 @ 01:36am


	.. how sad : (

Commented on: Sun Oct 29, 2006 @ 02:14am


	Oh my God!! If I would have been there I would have kicked his a 4 u...he is a mother-fing b*!!!!!!! U should have slapped him sooooo hard bcuz he is soooooooo stupid!!!!!! But I hope u feel better...and dont worry, there are other fish inthe sea, and better ones 2...bcuz stupid ones like him dont deserve u...and dont worry, I always got ur back if u need sumthin...especially if its 2 kick his a!! LOL-Evelyn

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Commented on: Sun Oct 29, 2006 @ 01:57pm


	Thanks for sayin all those things, ppl. but Jo, you know that I'm soo skinny, and of course I'm not that strong kid. So a friend named Hafsa offered to punch him for me, and I said "How hard is it gonna hurt" and she said that Austyn was in her fifth grade class and she punched him soo hard that he started crying and I said "OKAY!!!" And thanks for saying that Julius... even though I hate you, still. Everyone is still asking that question to me: why am I stilll obsessed with him. You have to understand that by yourself. its hard to explain it right here.

Commented on: Sun Oct 29, 2006 @ 11:32pm


	Awwwww, that's so sad; are you okay? sad I don't know why people don't just tell each other the truth; I mean, he shouldn't have told you he loved you too and all if he was running around with your friend ... There was really no point in lying; you would've found out sooner or later anyways, and you did ... Psssh, you're too good for liars, and just forget about him. And aww, but I like "Promise!" But your whole thing with the radio reminded me of "So Sick" by Ne-yo. =^^= huggles and hands a muffin Life will be better w/o him. 3nodding

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Commented on: Fri Nov 03, 2006 @ 12:03am


	crying crying crying crying crying cry cry cry cry cry that is sooooooooooooo sad i almost cried!!!!!!!!!!!!hope you feel better......you better???????????just forget about him......have you????????

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