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I wish for the ability to just ****** stop myself. to just... i dont know. i cant express it in **** words. im so mad at myself right now. i always let him get to me! im **** stupid. i dont think. or think too much, about all the wrong things. can i drop it? no. i dont let myself. im so tired, but my mind is too busy right now to sleep. have you ever felt like that before..? like you could sleep a week straight, but your mind doesnt shut the **** up long enough for you to get into bed? yeah.. meh oh well, not alot i can do about it. cant just turn thoughts off, right? i just want mike.. right now, that's the only thing in the whole world that i want. i dont think he understands, even still, exactly how i feel about him. i mean, i know it's crazy.. i've never felt like this about someone before. i have never wanted someone so badly, loved someone this deeply.. im *****. seriously.. there's no chance in hell he could feel like that back to me. he's my best friend*, and best friends arent supposed to feel that way.. i do, though. and there's not much that i can do to stop it, or change it. it's just... i dont know. things will either work out, or they wont. My mom came in a little bit ago and saw me crying. I couldnt even tell her why, I can barely tell anyone why. I wish I could, but it would just break her heart. She loves her family to much to know the truth, i dont want to hurt anyone else. it;s better this way. anyways, i have alot of things to get for my christmas giveaway thread, so i better get going.... if you wanna give anything away (in the christmas thread) feel free to donate the item and i'll be sure it gets in =3

Posted by: faggy muffin Fri Nov 03, 2006 @ 06:46am

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Commented on: Sat Nov 04, 2006 @ 02:00am


	aww...cant help ya there, but hugs hope ya get through...

Commented on: Sat Nov 04, 2006 @ 02:03am


	Oh, you made my heart hurt. ;o;

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Commented on: Sat Nov 04, 2006 @ 02:23am


	i know how you feel, well i still know. I truely hope it works out in the end because that would be the greatest thing to know. <3

Commented on: Sat Nov 04, 2006 @ 02:27am


	I'm sorry sweetie, I know just how you feel. I really do.

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Commented on: Sat Nov 04, 2006 @ 02:29am


	D': Is that what you were sad about last night?

Commented on: Sat Nov 04, 2006 @ 03:39am


	Some just have weak minds. D: Sadly mine is to strong, mind over matter really puts one into a strange situwation, so just be happy you can still be weak. It may sound horible, but I mean it in the best way posible. Good luck with every thing, I hope things get better for your emotions/brain fluids. </3 hug[as a friend]

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Commented on: Sat Nov 04, 2006 @ 05:16am


	Awww....I hope everything works out for you... Aw that was sad to read ;-;

Commented on: Sat Nov 04, 2006 @ 07:11pm


	Its always hard to really let people know how you feel. You know that there will never be another person who understands you as well as you do, but that doesn't stop you from wishing. You probably hear this a lot, but I know what it must be like for you, not entirely, but atleast partially. Not trying to sound like another one of those corny therapists, but if you'd like to talk sometime I'd love to get to know you better ^_^

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Commented on: Mon Nov 06, 2006 @ 03:58am


	I don't think I can relate to the loving of someone that much... But I believe I have somewhat of felt what you feel.

Commented on: Sun Aug 05, 2007 @ 07:29pm


	yeah. I totally understand that. I just cant stop myself from buying candy blaugh Oh well. There are worse things to be addicted to than sugar.

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