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Let me count the ways...

First of all, I don't like being at Dominos anymore since I quit. There's a year worth of memories.... Most of them were fun ones, and only a few were bad. Very few... And now... When I'm there I remember everything that's hapepned, all the memories, all the faces and people I used to see there, the joy I got from just setpping in the doors.... And ...

It honestly feels like you've taken all of that away from me... It's stupid and seflish to think like that... I'm just envious because that's pretty much what I had... 700+ a month to save up for college... and now I'm barely going to make anything... Thre's no one at my new job to relate.. to .. I'm scared. I'm hopelessly scared! And...

It hurts... because during the whole thing you didn't care that wayne treated me like crap. you didn't say a god dam word to me. the most rememorable thing you ever said to me was to get over with it. I'm sorry that I'm not over it yet OKAY? I'm sorry... I'm sorry that I apparently have feelings and can't take it when someone treats me badly.. When someone has me work only 3 hours a week when I'm the ******** senior staffer - when I did more than anyone else. I'm sorry okay. so ********..

I'm sorry that I cared about your opinion, and feel crushed because you didn't care if I was treated badly!! And then you go on talking about him like he's a ******** saint. ******** wayne, okay?? he ******** treats me badly and then you ******** go and be his ******** right-hand kiss-a** along with netoma. I really don't like netoma .. she ******** bgrags about what she makes like it's so ******** funny...

and then you chepaen the times that I've given you stuff. so I didn't pay for it? that ******** makes it less to you?! my ******** kindness to share things with you and to take care of you when no one else did is ******** crap to you? everything I do and say amounts to ******** nothing anymore?!?!

and when you finally ******** feel bad, ******** call me alright.

it wouldnt kill you to tell people anything would it? and you're still sick. and you still don't say anything.

you didn't say anything to me..

so when you get angry at me for not telling ou how i feel, knowing that everything inside of me will explode... I didn't want to explode on you at the store, because no one needs to work while they're emotional. so sorry that it wasn't the right time or place to ******** deal with it right then ok?

sorry.