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im tired.
if i had ever had the strength, i would finally do what i've been meaning to do for the longest time, and forcibly rearrange my life.

im tired of seeing people who used to be my friends taking away my current friends from me. especially after i made them who they are, i shaped them. without me in their lives, even for that brief moment, they would be nothing. its true, after all.
but people use me, they suck up everything i have to offer, and they leave me to dry and wither and die. and thats always how its been.

and then, after i decide that i dont want this anymore, they get mad. they say "dasha, you neevr talk to me anymore. dasha, why are you avoiding me? dasha, i miss you." and i dont really care..

ashley once said, i remember specifically, when discussing this subject. he said, "dasha, you'll never get rid of me." and guess what?

hes the one who wants to hang out and come see me, and all this other crap.
when i give friendship, i give a lot. and i dont expect a whole lot back. just the basics, you know, friend stuff..
apparently thats just not good enough for someone like me.