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Deja Vu?!?!?!?! (or is it?) After Austyn and I broke up for the second time, my whole life just looped itself and brought me back to the very beginning!!! scream When I first started liking Austyn, not alot of people knew, therefore, Austyn doesn't know, and that no one is forcing me to go out with him or anything. And Yesenia and I aren't hanging out that much, and she's also going out with CJ. In the beginning, I wasn't obsessed with him, and I didn't want people to know that I liked him because I thought that they would be thinking that I was crazy, and I didn't want Austyn to know that because I thought that he would reject me. Apparently, all of this stuff is going on right now!!! And I don't like it! Can someone please explain all of this stuff to me, because its just bizarre right now. At the moment, Austyn is going out with Keiana, and I think that I should do the same thing that I did before: let Austyn know that I like him... because after he found out, he started liking me too heart . But I don't want him to know until after he and Keiana break up, which I don't think will be a very long time because they're a closer couple then we ever were!!! I was told that she had a birthday party, and Austyn went, and he was going to kiss her. I think that he probably didn't because (if you read my previous journal entries) he was gonna kiss me, but he chickened out every chance he got. If he has to chicken out on me, then he has to chicken out on her too. scream When Austyn and I were together the second time, this was my family: Austyn and I were "married" and Austyn's "brother" was CJ who was "married" to Yesenia, who's my "sister" you get that, right? and my basic family that has been there for me ever since the first time we met... before I knew who Austyn was is Madison, Amanda, and Nathan. But now, I've basically been kicked out of the one with CJ Austyn and Yesenia, and i guess you could say "replaced" by Keiana... and I just don't like that!!! I was the one that started that family... and I just wish that it would end when I'm not there no more. I guess the only time it could end is if Austyn and Keiana broke up, then its just CJ and Yesenia, and its no family at all. So I'm going to make this statement: If I start something, its gonna end when I'm not involved with it anymore. I don't like that my life just starts over again, and the WRONG time!!! I'll admit that i wish that i could redo something... but now isn't the time to do it because my friend since 1st grade is going out with my baby!!!!! What do I do?

Posted by: [Pinay.4.Life] Thu Nov 16, 2006 @ 01:33am

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TheMuffinOfDoom
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Commented on: Thu Nov 16, 2006 @ 10:47pm


	ur luv sick... stare ...that's so sad emo

Commented on: Fri Nov 17, 2006 @ 12:32am


	She is not love sick D: well sorta XD

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Commented on: Sat Nov 18, 2006 @ 03:05am


	me just want to go there and punch austyn so hard scream stressed just one bec. I punch very hard well me don't want to if only I was there then I"ll talk to him God!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! scream stressed I feel so stupid,but u aren't lonely r u?sana nandyan ako gagantihan ko si austyn para sayo for him to feel how you r hurt,well if you are angry at this comment of mine.its ok for me hope you two will be together again wish me there to comfort you and tell him to talk to you and you 2 talk talk talking closure. well dat all hope you are smiling blaugh 3nodding cheerio take care always smile and God bless me imagining of you two now hope me see u in peron hehe 4laugh whee wink mrgreen 4laugh dramallama blaugh

Commented on: Mon Nov 27, 2006 @ 11:42pm


	well...i dunno...dats confusing...but I think u should tell Austyn and jump Keiana 4 stealing ur man twisted

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Commented on: Tue Nov 28, 2006 @ 06:11am


	Yeah that can hurt very much I know. I read your poems and recogniced how much different they are from mine. So much positive feelings. I like them very much. Although I#m not able to write in the same way. Love can hurt very much. But don't lie on your own feelings. If you realy like him, you can try again. But if you don't think it'll work again, then let him his new friendship. Pehaps she ha something you don't see at the moment. I don't know. You will find a new one, if you don't let your heart freeze like me. Or you join my club of the lonely hearts rolleyes No I don't think that would work. I#m much to depressed to be in company with you... farewell always hurts. Good luck for your future.. Another Poet

Commented on: Wed Nov 29, 2006 @ 11:14pm


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