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i need somewhere to vent so this is where im gonna do it
this morning i wokeup late because of my crappy alarm so i didnt get any breakfast
i got really depressed after 2nd period today and almost cried but i dont know why
4th period i got yelled at again "for not paying atention" even though...the class hadnt started yet...
lunch was surprisingly good
and my day got better cause i found out that my best guy friend loves cats as much as i do
i actually unerstood what i was doing in chemistry for once
i made friends and got to talk one on one with my DM
i got home and got emo again for some reason
then i talked to my best friend Mouse and he made me feel better
then i RP'd wich made me feel even better
then i got hungry and got yelled at by my mom for getting in a disagreement with my english teacher
and then i typed some more of my story
and out of no where i got really depressed again and i wanna cry but i dont know why
11/17/06
Current emoticon: emo

well my day was horrible
i dont know why but i dont feel good
about anyhthing
i hate the school i hate the town i hate my house i hate my family i hate my self i hate my friends
wich i find horrible cause my friends are pretty cool...most of them anyway
and the house is big
i havnt felt good since when i was in vegas
im always sick at least a little bit
i find myself thnking of doing things i know damn well are bad for me
i dont know...
i cried at least once in every class today efore lunch
exept 4th because i was just really really pissed off
i collapssed in the library after school
i dont know what happened i was looking at a tom sawyer book and next thing i know im dizzy and everything is spinning and i was on the floor
i got my mid term today and it was horrible
i got 2 c's and a D
the d is wrong its supossed to be a c and should hopefully be fixed tomorrow
the c in my chemistry class should get fixed too
and the c in my spanish will prolly go up once my test is graded
so in about 2 weeks i'll have all A's and B's again but my parents wont care and i'll just be grounded so im not gonna say anything unless they ak me
i just cryed again
but i dont why
oh well
current mood:im not sure i guees emo stressed scream crying stare would be similar
11/20/06

well i feel like s**t
i don know why im just really ******** emo today
all i wanna do is ball up in a corner and cry...or kill myself wichever comes first
i miss my gf but i can talk to her and im not gonna see her for 5 months
i hate livng
i just stopped crying but it didnt help
i think it made it worse'
i need something to take my mind off of it
i really wanna rp but mouse isnt on so i cant
if i could call kara-chan it would prolly chearme up buti dont know when im gonna be able to call
i hate it here i hate it hate it more han anything
i just wanna go home not this home the one where all my friends are i hate it i wanna o home and now im crying again
mood: mad at the world gonk scream stressed crying emo cry evil
12/9/06