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well i know i haven't written in here in quite awhile..guess i been to busy to eve do that..just figured no one would be interested in what i had to say about what i was thinking or feeling..but today i don't care besides no one has to read this...so im gonna ramble if i want and earn gold at the same time so there..lol
i have been having some fun online lately talking with my boyfriend we had a really good chat last night..maybe there is hope for us yet...i sure hope so cause i love him so much ..im just scared im going to hurt him again and i don't want to do that..but i know why i do..its a defense mechanism i have sure wish i could just throw it in the trash where it belongs...lol