I can turn the gray more blue, give me a chance and I'll show you. How to go from good to bad to worse.
And then you'll see my greatest gift is, falling down and takin' it. 'Cause everything feels better when it hurts....
My biggest thirst, is Happiness, in all kinds of weather
For worse or for better, I'll have it anyway.
But happiness, can't last forever.
You know there's never, pleasure without the pain.
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"Why does everything happen at once? Plans slowly unraveling, people loosing something important to them, life, love, GOD I need to find a coping method... I don't want tears, I want everything to work out okay... I want to be able to spend time with those I love... I want to stop being taunted by a higher power... v-v I want to be able to cling and cuddle to him... I want the butterflies, I want the racing heart... I want to be warm... I dont want the tears..."
My sister, my friend, has hadnothing but bad luck with guys.. they lie, cheat, steal, and toy with her emotions. I have no clue what's been going on, but all I can assume is that she tried to kill herself last night, and untill I see her again, I'm supposing she succeeded.... but She, and a few other of my friends have done this to me before...and they always show back up, that's what I'm hoping for.
As for other things, well... Lets just say, they aren't too hot eitherThings seemed to be okay, just a little bit of yelling, nothing we couldn't handle... but now, I'm not so sure. All I know is that it might not happen... I'm so confused, I want to know more, but the answers I need, I can't eem to get. ANd new plans that form, I don't think they'll be so solid. I think they'll just fall through...
I neet to rant, I need to scream... but I can't find my voice. All I can find are stinging eyes and welling tears. I've been spread too thin again... But it's not because of the people I know, they're just innocent bystanders of those I don't know.. Those who think they know best, or those who are just bored and need to play with others emotions. Those who deny rights to others, throw away simple requests...
I just feel so small, I'm scared... I don't want to be left alone.. but that's how it seems to be turning out... People here, they might have more severe problems then I do, I don't doubt that, but in the state I'm in, I don't care. I want to be selfish, I want to have my wishes granted, but, that's hot going to happen.
Comment left to PalinDarkSword
I don't know who you think you are, and currently, I don't really care. You've hurt Nessa more then once, and that's more then you should have. I hope your pleased with yourself. As it is, my week has been pretty sucky, and you, well, you've just gone and pushed it over the edge. Nessa didn't ask me here, so and quarrel yo have with my words should be taken up with me, not her, you've put her through enough.
Stick with one girl, don't toy around with other people just so you can have your sick pleasure of seeing them break, and then, in Nessa's case, try to kill themselves. I don't know if she actually succeeded, all I know is she tried.
What right do you have to play headgames with her? Taunt her with ideas and then just go off with the same girl you go running off with. You haven't that right. Just like the guys before you that toyed with her and took her for a ride, just to leave her there, alone and afraid.
It's people like you that make me sick. How can you honestly do that to her?
Granted, I don't have your side of the story, and I doubt I'd listen with the mindset I'm in. But from what I've heard from Nessa, I don't need your side of the story. I can't do anything to you, just yell and rant. You won't hear from me again unless to try to toy with Nessa again.
Just do me a favor and don't talk to her. No matter how much she attempts to make contact (if she can) You'll only bring her back in and break her again. Go play your games with someone else. Leave Ness alone.
 OokamiD · Sun Dec 03, 2006 @ 03:36pm · 0 Comments |
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