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THERE'S A HUGE, DEEP HOLE IN MY WORLD WHERE PHENOMENAL LOVE USED TO BE. IT'S FILLED TO THE BRIM WITH TEARS AND PAIN.

After a stupid disagreement last night over study habits, followed by a day filled with the silent treatment, the love of my life, my life partner, someone whom I trusted implicitly, came out to my family over, loved with all my heart and soul, without a word to me packed up his clothes at my home and broke up with me today, without so much as a willingness to talk and resolve our misunderstanding, like normal loving couples do.

There's a full moon tonight reflecting the hurt back at me from my pool of pain as I drove home after dropping him off at his dorm. I am stunned and shocked that all the LOVE, TRUST, JOY and HAPPINESS, which I was led to believe was mutual, could be so easily, callously, flippantly thrown away like worthless trash with no value in the blink of an eye. I can’t believe how or why he would/could hurt me so. I truly believed our love was strong and mutual.

It's going to take a long, long time for me to heal. My love was so deep and genuine that the pain is unbearable. Forgive me if I’m not chipper for awhile. 12-04-06 7:00 PM