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I've Been Feeling Guilty Lately... Chances are he's going to read this, but...whatever. If anything, he'll understand where I'm coming from slightly better. First off, this REALLY nice guy asked me to be his girlfriend almost a month ago. At the time, I didn't know what I wanted, so I asked him to wait for my reply. He did, faithfully at that. When I finally gave him my answer (a month later), I felt horrible, because looking back it appeared like such a simple question. Now as I watch him, I'm starting to doubt myself. Should I have given him a chance? Have I even made the right decision? Thing is, I've always lived out pretty much independant of any kind of boyfriend relationship, and I've always been happy that way. When I look at my friends who are like "You're lucky to have guys throwing themselves at your feet," I always tend to ask "why?" I'm not exceedingly pretty, or smart, or anything. So what the heck do guys see in me? Maybe that's why I said "no." I pray to whoever I'm supposed to that isn't the case, that my insecurities caused me to lose a valuable relationship. But I guess I'll just have to see how things go... Currently listening to: What Hurts the Most - Rascal Flatts

Posted by: YoukaiTori Sat Dec 09, 2006 @ 12:42am

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Commented on: Wed Dec 13, 2006 @ 10:54pm


	Welcome to the world of dating, where everything is the same and, yet, no one catches on. Go with your heart gut instinct and consider your pros and cons. If you've got serious doubts, wait a year/month/eon and see what happens. If there are no changes, and you still have that "Eh..I kinda' want to..." feeling, then have at it. This isn't a permanent thing, the purpose of dating is to try things out, to feel awkward, and to look like a complete idiot. If you hold serious doubts for a few months, or the whole thing just blows over, then no big deal. As of now, just relax. Neither of you did anything wrong. He asked you an honest question, you gave him an honest answer. He even knows that you considered it! It's was a win-win result, even though you're feeling bad. Choosing otherwise would have led you into a relationship existing out of guilt, and that never would have lasted. Mate, I'm rambling. Ignore me or pretend I have sage advice, either way. Come to think of it, I'm not a credible source and I can't even get my friend to go out with me... And why won't you Fledge? Why!?!? .:The Mithril_elf:...has plagued and defiled your journal with his thoughts.

Commented on: Thu Dec 14, 2006 @ 02:42am


	^_^ Thank you. And even if you classify it as rambling, your words have helped me feel at least a little better. Right now we're on...okay terms I guess, though I can't help but get the feeling that he's avoiding me as much as possible. He claims he's just "giving me space," but I still want him there as a friend as he promised me he would be. Are you guys always this complex? whee And are you refering to my buddy? xd question

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Commented on: Thu Dec 21, 2006 @ 12:06am


	Are we really all that complex? I was under the impression we were stiflingly simple... And, yes, there is a distinct chance that my in-denial lover is your comrade. 3nodding

Commented on: Thu Dec 21, 2006 @ 01:03am


	xd I don't think you all mean to be, so that just makes it even more difficult at times. Though I'm pretty sure it is the person I'm thinking about. Though if she's aware of it, I would assume as much. She's among the sharper of kunais in the pouch.

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