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Okay right now im at a friends house and she was doing her homework and talking to her friends as i was writting in my journal..and i have to get this out before is causes some major damage to me...and makeing me do something stupid...Dekar if or when you read this..just ignore it..okay i mean its just what im feeling and im going to go crazy if i keept his in as i had said earlier..but anyways...i was thinking about me and Dekar..our characters are in a relationship..but we are also in a long distant, secretive relationship out side of gaia. And it hurts with the fact that i have to hide him from my family...i have to continuely say that he is a "friend" when he is so much more.....but i also think..and Dekar you even said so your self too..that im taking this to far...so am i really? Do i continuely do it without reliseing it..and if i do then im sorry. but as i was writting in my journal..i relised that of all the relationships that have worked perfectly..the guy was a a**...and of all the guys that i truely like ither have a girlfriend already or they hate/dispise me. so i guess this was confilicting with the fact that I have a picture of him and he looks awsome..so i have been thinkingidk ive lost my thought ill finish this when i get it back chao
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