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Raining emotions
I underestimated the pain
I closed my eyes and watched the blood drip down
And the tears that formed after all these years of nothing
Theyre slowly draining my life away
I looked up but no one was there
So all I could do was be blinded by fear
And defeat
So I let the loneliness set in
And let the pain consume the rest
The blood drips to the floor
And the blade hits the ground
I turn around to see you at my door
And I watch your tears fall to the floor like rain
As you watch me slowly dying
In the days
That slowly filled my life with pain.
That I cant stop.
The only thing left to do
Is pretend
To put on a smile that everyone believes
And to hide it from you
So you can be happy but me I dont care
And why?
Cuze no one understands the pain and neglect Ive endured
Through the days that go bye like the blink of an eye
As they pass I cant remember a thing
Its like the past cant be traced
Like it was all just a dream
Yet the pain I still feel
From the present and the past
But its not so easy as to just let go
Of the pain and the lies as they drop like the snow
Believe me Ive tried
You think I cant feel?
Or do you just think I can deal with a pain you dont even know exists?
But than if you think its so easy
Why dont you just take over and heal these open wounds?
So I can feel again
So I can love and cry, and care like I used to,
In those younger days,
When we played in the thornless roses of innocence
And tried so hard to figure out the world
Only to find out
That things arent what they seem
And now when I look back at the scars
Was I right to take the blame?
Right to shed my blood all over the floor for the sake of them?
Even though they never really cared at all?
But even still, I underestimated the pain I would feel
But why do I try so hard to care when it brings nothing but
Pain and regret?