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No. I'm not contemplating suicide, but my last day of school for this year is tomorrow. It has been quite different from the others and I'm not quite sure what to say. I'll do the best I can though. If only I can write this without criticism. Even though I seem confident or happy I think it is more for the benefit of my friends. Every group needs a smile they can depend on to keep them cheery. I guess that might be me. As long as things don't build up.

To start on the actual yeat though, I realize yet again why I don't date. My sister reminded me all too much of the drama that comes from a relationship. She brings home too much of it. -.- I know we aren't the same person, but I'm pretty sure there'd still be drama if I were to get into my own relationship. That and I'm not too confident in asking girls out.

I've done a couple of stupid and insensitive things. I know, or at least hope, that everyone does. I don't know if I apologized for all of them or not, but sorry to anyone I may have offended.

I have found myself starting to realize I overthink things. Maybe it is because of that I'm able to skip a couple of uneeded mistakes I've seen others make. I find myself thinking over all my actions and thoughts. I guess I usually try to discern whether they are good or bad. Not only only a socially acceptable level, but also one that I can be happy with. I don't want to be someone I hate.

Anther subject that found a bit of power over me this year was homework. I'm actually starting to do it. Well sometimes. I still have a bit of trouble turning it in. I finally know why too! It is because even when I am bored to death I would rather do anything else than homework. Even if it means laying on my back staring at the ceiling. I don't know why it is so unappealing to me. I enjoy it in school so could it be the environment that I'm in?

I also have been on an imaginative spree. The only thing is I keep forgetting to write it down and I forget. I might actually add on to some of the stories in my journal or go back and edit some. The Fox and the Hound seems the most likely one so far and I always have more ideas for Setra Stories..... I've also been finding myself haveing some strange dreams the past couple of days. I find myself the hero in them and I like that, but I can't remember what I was doing or why.

I'm not sure what else to say and I'm watching Rent right now so I won't write what I haven't thought of yet. I wish you all the best of times.