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Even though I've already wrote all this out already and it all just disappeared... I must start over. >.<
Okay... my friend asked me what was wrong.
*ish feeling depressed*
And so I decided to type to her a story. ^^ It might not be completely accurate... but it was just what I felt like typing.
...
Me:
Once upon a time there was a really pathetic chikka.
And she... was a very terrible person. &.&
Really negative.
Really... sad.
Really... ... lonely~
I don't know.
She just wasn't a very happy person.
Friend:
Awe.
Me:
But don't feel sorry for her. >.>
She deserved her unhappiness~
Friend:
...
Continue...
Me:
Well...
She didn't believe in... love and all that kind of stuff.
It was all just a game to her...
A lie...
A... tragedy waiting to happen.
And she hated herself so much...
That she would do terrible things to herself.
She liked to cry...
She liked to bleed.
She was basically insane. ^^
And she pretty much assumed that no one could ever love someone like her.
Ever.
But...
One day...
There was a person who thought it was okay to love her.
They saw things in her that were probably not even there. &.&
Because she knew that there was no way someone could feel that way about her.
But...
She felt the same...
And she was really scared.
It was something she'd never believed in. It was something she didn't understand.
It was something she thought she was supposed to run from...
...
So for a while...
She did.
She hid away and tried to pretend it didn't exist.
But... while she tried to bleed away the feeling... she only felt it grow.
Until a point where she was almost obsessed with this person...
Friend:
Kay, I gotta go in 2 minutes (just saying).
Me:
Then I guess I gotta hurry then. >.>
Friend:
Sorry...
Me:
Okay! As time passed feelings I guess just got a lot stronger
And... she started to really really love this person.
She loved him so much it would sometimes hurt.
Even though he pretty much said that he was hers...
And that he would be with her forever.
She didn't believe it
And she was afraid to have him... 'cause she didn't want to break him...
Hurt him somehow...
Friend:
Kay, I have to go now...
Me:
Oh gosh, I'm sorry!
Friend:
'Tis okay. I liked your story 'cause it's kind of how I feel... bye.
Me:
Bye...
Now... I know I shouldn't be typing this kind of stuff to my friendie. -_- And I certainly shouldn't be posting it! But I'm going to anyway.
Slightly annoyed with my friend that she just let me ramble on and on... but... I feel kind of relieved. ^^ Not feeling too depressed anymore. I'm just... neutral.
*sighs*
That wasn't exactly the end of the story... but it was where I had to conclude. But... it's just a story. ^^ Maybe that chikka will live happily ever after. Or maybe she won't. If I'm writing it... there aren't too many garantees on anything happy. Someone else needs to write the ending. Maybe she won't hate me so much that way.
...
Damn it, I shouldn't post this.
xD
But I guess I'm going to. o.o
Not like any of my invisible readers care too much. >.>
...
I might regret this later. -_-
- Sakura Lied.
 Lyccea · Thu Dec 21, 2006 @ 10:49pm · 0 Comments |
