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Nothing more than a short little vignette...though a sad one.

Could Have Been



“I’m sorry…” The voice was timid, weak, and hesitant and he didn’t have to look at her to tell she was crying but the tears that poured down her face made his heart clench painfully.

“Sorry…for what?” his voice was held impeccably neutral even though tears threatened to stream down his face as well.

“Everything.” She replied as if it explained everything.

“Everything…”He repeated knowing full well that it explained everything and nothing at the same time.

“Yes…everything. I know I love you and that I hurt you terribly because I love you. I know that I was a blind fool and that I did more harm than good. I was told to either risk loosing you or loose you for good. I never wanted this to happen. I was never expecting you to come into my life.” The tears came harder and faster then they had a moment ago, rendering her unable to continue if in fact she had anymore to say.

“You…”

“I…”She sniffled and took a deep, shaking breath to steady her shaking voice. “Was afraid.”

“Afraid of what?” His piercingly blue yet violet eyes locked onto her own, pained to see the deep-seated sadness and pain in her chocolate colored eyes.

“Losing you.” She looked down, not able to take his stare. “I still don’t know if I can stop the pain.”

“It doesn’t hurt…not really.” He tried to convince her of her misconception, even though she had in fact hurt him. The thing was, he understood better than she knew why it was so hard for her. Why she couldn’t base the decision on just her heart.

“Don’t lie to me. You know full well that I hurt you worst of all.” She stood up then, walking slowly to him and placing a pale hand to his own pale cheek in a gentle touch of affection. “I hurt you…the person I love more than anything in the world.” She placed a chaste kiss to his lips and moved towards the door of darkened wood, stopping only once to glance back at the man she loved, unsure of weather or not she could ever face him again. “I’ll be around…”She whispered, knowing he could hear her and left, walking slowly down the hall in a tear induced haze.

“I love you too…” He whispered to the now closed door, knowing he had spoken far too late.