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I don't feel good right now. My head feels hot, but I'm cold. My stomach hurts, like .. someone is punching it directly, or squeezing it tightly. I feel fatigued and tired - but I cannot sleep. It.. takes a strain to do anything like speaking, and I have to concentrate to type. I keep worrying about the same things over and over but I can't do anything about it.. what's.. wrong with me.. why can't I be strong...?

I fade away
just fade away
Pretend to smile
To be your puppet
I can play this game
Wear the mask
And mask my pain
You won't be the wiser
That is the game
You are the master
As I just fade
I fade away

I guess it's sad
to say such things
I tried so hard
In all my shame
I wanted to play
And forget everything
I am a poor puppet
My emotions to blame
This is never goodbye
It won't be the same
I may never truly
Just fade away

If I did fade away
Would anyone notice?
I wrote my sins in white
I saw them every day
Regret begets regret
The cycle is born
Forever in eternity
Such reasoning scorned
What I never born
Would everyone live on
If I just fade
Just fade away

If I fade away
A dream without me
A world unseen
It could never be
I will try to resolve
And find the path
Hold onto friendship
And a sweet emapath
A warm, kind love
I could never give up
To make all these feelings
Just fade away