I'm sure people have felt a past feeling; good or bad.
Lately, I've been crying in public places because of a certain feeling I've been suppressing for 8 years.
That's not like me. Normally I'm strong emotionally, and I could wait til I get home or think of something that would be able to cheer me up.
That certain feeling is as if everyone's out to get you; that everyone hates you, ignores you, doesn't care or even want you.
It's hard to be on the outside of a click. Also, knowing myself, I don't have the confidence to push or let others know that I want to be a friend. I'm just the third wheel. Doesn't matter where I am. At school, at home, at dinner with others.
To them I'm just...there and nothing more.
I'm greatful to Neal, Brother & Jill. They've at least told me that I'm someone. That I don't have to worry when I'm around them because they'll reconize me for me.
But because some people are total asses, let me just say this: I do NOT. Let me repeat, I do NOT know what it's like to be you or anyone else. I can't say that because I DON'T. I can't even say, "It's hard to be me."
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And I take it you and Brother are okay, now?
That's good. <3