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I'm tired of sitting in the shadow of someone who everyone adores. I maybe the only person who thinks this way, but if I feel the way I do, I've got to do something about it. Right?

Right.

To fix this I plan to do a few things. Starting with dropping that stupid dance class I enrolled in. I can apply for financial aid next semester. I ******** hate that class. If I hate something, and think of every possible excuse not to go, then thats a clear indicator that I shouldn't be in that class. I only did it because a friend said it'd be fun. Its not fun for me. Not in the ******** slightest. I'll probaby use my free time to complete my homework, or request to work on that day. If I can't dance, I can make money. I hate my job, but I love my money. A sick combination, but to me it works.

I feel that it is within my best interest to just completely separate myself from the people I talk to. I'm tired of feeling second best, or in a lot of cases the one that always get pissed on. I don't deserve half the s**t I get, and I don't have to take it. Instead of getting pissed off and probably hurting some people, I'm leaving. I work and go to school, not much else so it doesn't matter. Maybe my friend Jen had the right idea in submersing herself into something so deep that she lost sight of a lot of things.

So in short, to anyone who understands: Screw you guys I'm goin' home.

And back to my drink.

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