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so here's the story. i had a bf for 15 months and it just wasnt working anymore. i'm only 15 and we had started dating when i was 13 and i just felt as if we'd changed so i broke up with him. a day later he still hasnt calmed down. he's suicidal now and i get scared and take him back. a week later i try to break up with him again. we gets suicidal again. i tell his parents so they can keep an eye on him and go about my buisiness.

and then there's a fella that i kinda like.

i had been over the guy i broke up with for a while i just didnt want to upset him or... well... make him suicidal so i didnt break up with him for a while in hopes it would get better obviously it didnt so i left him. my point is i've been over him for a good while and i've moved on.

so anyway i like this guy and the ex-bf knows about it. so now he's homocial. he wants to kill the guy i like and he attacked him at school. then the police got involved. there wasnt a big fight but the xbf hurt the crush.

basically i endangered two peoples lives and got someone i deeply care about hurt. reprecusions? i'm left with no one and i feel an overwhelming sence of guilt. i'll presume the crush doesnt like me anymore and at very least his father loaths me, which isnt good. i dont blame him if he hates me anyway i got him hurt and i started this whole mess and dragged him into it. and i dated someone who was clinically insane and i didnt know this until now. i lost my virginity to someone who was completely and utterly insane.

... happy valentines day


EDIT: the xbf is still crazy but they wont drop the charges if he hurts anyone or doesnt go to therapy for the next year. so i think that's enough to stop him. and me and the crush are dating so most everything is right with the world. (i'm dating Maxwell_specific)