So, Valentines is when all of the couples get together and spend this special day together. It's when they're suppose to be together.. to show eachother how much you love one another..
Well.. it wasn't the case this year.. </3 This year I waited.. and waited.. and waited for Neal to get online.. or call me.. or something..
I waited until about 9:30pm until he finally called me..
He was out. With his ex, Paige and his other friend Whitney.
It broke my heart. I screamed and my mom rushed into the room to hold me.
I'm so.. crushed. I really don't feel anything. I don't want to be happy.. and I don't want to smile. I just want life to end as we speak.. I want to die so Neal can be free of me.. 'cause I'm guessing that's what he wants..
Why on this day? Why couldn't he do it Thursday? Why.. on Valentines day? ;__;
Why Neal? You promised you'd make Valentines one of the best I've ever had..
YOU PROMISED. ;____________;
How can I trust this man with my heart again..? Why do I let him do whatever he wants as I sit back and take it? Why am I getting hurt by someone that's suppose to love me..? ;_________;
Should I be mad..? Do I have a right..? Or should I just forgive him.. like I always do..?
I forgive him because I love him.. but.. I think he hit the deepest spot in my heart and went way too far..
It's going to take forever for my heart to mend.. maybe it never will..
I hate this.. I wish I could just go in the future and tell myself not to get your hopes up.
Why Neal..? Why did you break my heart..? ;__;
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WHAT. THE. [********]. WAS. HE. THINKING?! D<
God ******** dammit. He keeps pissing me off and hurting you and I'm going to hunt him down and shoot his d**k off.