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The sound of the station could cheer me up,
But at the same push me down, to the deepest of solitude...

I always wonder what other people are doing at the same time as me...and I always wonder if I could be spending my time in a better way. I don't think there's anyone in the world doing the exact same thing as you, wearing the same thing as you, or living life the same way as you... things like this always lead to more questions...and causes you to think, right? I can be in a crowded place, looking at everyone, and I'll pick one random person from the crowd. What is their life like..? What makes them happy? Sad? There are so many worries and wants in the world, I can't help but think my own are so stupid, and small. I think there's too much going on in the world to worry about everyone around you, but sometimes it makes you wonder...
I want to become a better person. I just don't know how to do it. I want to be the person people want me to be, but...I don't know what to do... to be that person.

Living up to everyone's standards, or my own? What's more important..?






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[xNaomix]
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commentCommented on: Sun Feb 18, 2007 @ 06:41am
Your own standards are the best ways to go. You learn from your mistakes, others mistakes, and so on. It's better to live your own standards. I'm glad that your writing about this. Whenever I try to put some of this stuff into Mercedes' brain, she pushes it back out. I've thought of so many things almost every day. How many people are suffering? Dieing? How many have to bear so much torture with no one there to comfort them? It really knocks some sense into you. I've realized lately how selfish I've been. But we're all selfish in our own ways and sometimes we don't even realize it.

Live your own standards, and then will you receive the answer you need.


commentCommented on: Sun Feb 18, 2007 @ 05:55pm
I guess that's true. But just like the cheezy Lion Kind thing, Circle of life, people live and people die. Someone new is born every 12 seconds and someone dies every 8 seconds in the U.S. That literally means we Americans are dying faster than being born.
I do think everyone is selfish- I agree with you there.. but usually, all in the same way-- i.e., everyone has the basic instincts of survival. Food, belongings, even possessiveness over people... when it comes down to it, we all have caveman-like instincts. But, still, it's always good to think of yourself first sometimes, so really, you shouldn't feel so selfish.
I, on the other hand... So many people have given me so much, and I barely appreciate it... I feel pretty horrible when I'm a jerk to my parents because they've given so much for me.
But anyway, as Shigure would say, keserasera, What will be, will be (es: que sera, sera). We can't change what we've done in the past, but we can always change in the future, right? ^^



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