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My mom went back to the hospital which is for the mentally Ill. I am wondering if its my fault this time since I didnt have a job and I am fat. I think what ever happenend must be my fault. It feels like it. I dont know if my mom tried to OD her self again or cut herself. I hate it. I hate my self right now. I wish I had like a friend here right now or someone to tell me its not my fault this time.

I cant help but believe that because my mother was fine until I told her to talk to this woman emily because I cant handle it so Its my fault. I hate it so much at the moment. its my fault I know it is I dont know what I do. I say I am ok for a while then it hits my I start to cry and wonder if every time shes in the hospital I always wonder is it my fault that she OD or cut herself.


I wish my life was something simple. crying