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Wow, I have such creative titles. Anyway, today wasn't so bad. I'm starting to ease up on the whole "issue" with Sitori. She knows what I mean and I'll leave it at that... ok, so I have one more thing to say about it and then I'll leave it at that. Sitori: You need to go to counciling. I will not have you go around thinking that you are without help. If you don't want mine, fine. Just go talk to someone. And by someone I mean a professional.

Anywhozzles, on with the show. I have come to the realization that I am a very late bloomer when it comes to socializing. I'm always one step behind everyone and their thoughts. When people got pissed about Jenny, I talked to her and earned a nasty little reputation. That was fine with me; I wasn't feeling hostile towards her. A little later when everyone was finally talking to her again I started to get a little pissy with her myself. People would tell me to chill out and that didn't I know that every thing was fine again? They had all talked it over with her and apparently I was excluded from that, too. Same situation with a whole bunch of other people. People will be pissed off at someone and when the sun-shiny rays of happiness are just starting to come back, I must go out of my way to squish them all again. *shakes head sadly* Maybe I'm just a little slower than most.

It's not only with friendships either. Jenny is teasing me lately because I haven't had a crush on anyone in a long while. When I threw I hissy fit for her calling me asexual she just smiled and said "Don't worry! I was just kidding. I know you're not asexual....your ANTI-sexual!" Now, as funny as this is (I must admit, it was hysterical at the time) it still kinda sucked to hear it. It's true I don't like anyone right now, but that's acceptable, right? I mean it's happened to me before. I like the way my life is right now, thank you very much, and I don't really feel the need to have someone be that kind of close with me. I'm perfectly happy with the attention I'm getting now from my friends and family, is that so hard to understand? Ugh! Sorry, it just kinda pisses me off.

Ok, now that you've read the emo stuff, you may take your leave and go think many happy thoughts filled with bunnies and rainbows. Have a super awesome day/month/year!