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I'm completely and utterly sick of life at this point. Between money, drama, being in the Army... I ******** hate my life. All I really wanna do anymore is sleep. Like I said in my entry last night, sleep is the best thing in the world. When I'm asleep I'm not lonely, sad, angry, depressed or any of the other horrible feelings I have all day every day. I still wish I could just go to sleep tonight and not wake up in the morning.

I'm just going to start going straight to sleep after work, because I have no real interest in anything else at this point. When I'm sleeping is the only time I'm happy anymore. Actually, I'm not really even happy then, but at least I'm not unhappy.

Sorry if this post seems a little long, rambly and kinda out of order. But I just had so much s**t I wanted to say and some of it came to me after I should have already written it, so I just stuck it in where it seemed to fit best. Like I said, I stopped hoping for tomorrow to be a better day a while ago. I completely expect tomorrow to be just as bad or worse than today. But I hope you're tomorrow is better.

Edit: I was pretty upset when I made this post last night. Now that I've had some time to think about it a bit I decided I should probably take some of the s**t I said out. I just wasn't really thinking clearly at the time. This is now a severely edited entry.