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It hurts...
Last Night I made a revalation. I relized that ever since my mom has started going back to school. My school has become harder for me to endure. I found that my grades aren't as high. They are high but not as high as they used to be. I have gained that awfle habit of procrastination. But I was not like that in 6th grade. In fact I enjoyed the school so much my homework was done as soon as I got home. But when my mother went to school new resposibilities that no one I know has to put up with where put on my shoulders. 7th wasn't entirely hard but it started to get harder because I didn't have as many. It only started this year. I think that the stress that I have comes from haveing to cook, do laundry, trash, and other chores which come frequently. I have soccer to release some stress but lately that has not been enough. When my aunt came to watch us for a week, as soon as my parents left there was a certain aura that released all of the stress because my aunt and uncle were the ones cooking and such. But as soon as my parents walked through the door. The aura disapeared and I felt stressful once again. I have found that I am not capable of leaving the house like I used too. My shoulders are weighed down by all of the stress. At lunch now it seems like the only time I can relax and have fun. I found myself enjoying that time and laughing, but I can't cling on to that. I am worried that if this keeps up I wont be able to live going to Brebuef. I am worried that I will fail...