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I'm cold. ~.~
Like. Freezing. D: And tired too.
But I can't go back to sleep, no matter how much I want to. ;-; 'Cause I can't miss you, if you come online before nine. ;-;
I can't believe how worried and paranoid I am. xD I'm scared for some reason. .__. You're okay right? I'm just being silly in thinking otherwise, right?
It's not like I doubt you. .___. Just sometimes you scares me. ;-; I must scare you quite a bit. Or did. Or sometimes do. Or something.
...
You said you'd be on in the early morning~
But you aren't~
Though, of course, it's only been seventeen minutes since I even got up. ;-;
And here's a random, out of place comment. You know how I almost fell off the chair yesterday, and hit my arm in attempts to save myself? Yeah, well. ~.~ I have a weird mark on my elbow now. Nothing big. But I just accidentally thumped it against the chair again, and it does hurt. ^^
*sneezes*
Three times. :3
Nevermind. Four. xD
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I'm scared. ;-; I have this haunting feeling that's telling me I should cry right now. ._. But I'm too scared to start, just in case I can't stop... ;-;
Be okay. ._. Be okay, be okay, be okay. .___.
Please. ;-;
...
Kay, I'm done being overly dramatic and/or really pathetic over what might just be a case of oversleeping. >__>
Ah, yeah...
Sick. ;-;
My throat still hurts a bit. ;-; But honestly, I don't think I'm getting sick. o-o
Maybe, I'm stupid. xD But I'm sticking with it. ;-; I'm not sick. HEALTHY, damn it. ;-;
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I love you. ;-; So much. ;-;
I tell you not to forget, but sometimes I think you do anyway. ;-;
But you still have forever, right? 'Cause I'm not leaving. ;-; And you're not going to either, right?
That would kill me. .__. I know it would. ._.
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Sometimes you make it sound like I'm putting on this act. ;-; And that all these words are just planned out to be used against you in the end. ;-; And that kind of hurts. xD But I set myself up for that, didn't I? I made too many mistakes. .__.
And at the same time, I try so hard to be perfect for you. xD But I fail. ._. I can't even keep you happy. ;-;
But! I can fix that. ._. RAWR, I don't know. .__.
I'm just really scared and teary eyed at the moment. ;-; Too much lack of understanding. Too many unanswered questions.
Lots of love. ._. That currently doesn't have an outlet...
I dreamt about going to see you. ;-; In the rain. ;-; Though, I don't even know if it was raining last night. ._.
I knitted ten more row-things. ;-; Almost done the second red section, to go on to the third black section. ;-; But just sitting there, knitting...
It makes a lot of thought happen. ;-; So I stopped and went to sleep. ;-;
Laying in bed, unable to sleep...
Makes a lot of thought happen as well. ;-;
There was just no escape~
Until I fell asleep, that is. xD Whenever that was. ;-; Nine-ish.
Just. ;-; I hope you feel better when you wake up. Or when you woke up. Whatever the situation is. ;-; I wish I could save you. ._. I wish I knew how to save people from their own sorrows... ;-;
I love you. .__. More than anything and everything. ;-; Please, don't forget... ;-;
Please. ;-;
- Sakura Lied.
 Lyccea · Mon Apr 02, 2007 @ 10:41am · 0 Comments |
