I thought Easter is supposed to be a happy holiday.
Today, I'm just going to laze around... like any other day, really.
Lately, I've been getting upset, and then just.. trying to turn it around. I know it sounds stupid, but it's really, really hard staying positive. I can't just focus on the good parts of things. The bad parts just leave a big, empty hole, you can't just ignore it. It's like trying to ignore an elephant in your living room while you're watching TV.
It's okay to just feel... just sad, I think so.
I got some marshmellow bunnies. They don't make me feel any better. My family all went to a movie, and I didn't want to see the movie... but I really wish I went now. I feel kinda left out because my family's all gone and it's just me, on Easter alone for hours now.
I think it's just this childish, lonely feeling. It hurt really bad just seeing the car leave the driveway.
I hate this feeling.
I hate it.
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