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Once upon a time~
I used to be the chikka that felt no pain~
The chikka that wasn't really afraid of anything~
The chikka who didn't really feel much at all~
Well. o-o I wasn't actually said chikka. I was just... believed to be that way? I don't know.
Just... xD
At one point. o-o I rarely even expressed pain. o-o Thought it would show I was weak. xD So I would say that nothing hurt. o-o
People would be all, "That doesn't hurt?! How?!"
And I'd just shrug. xD Even if, sometimes I was holding back tears. o-o
And fear-wise... xD
Well, I'm basically afraid of everything. o-o Always have been. I was afraid of people, especially. o-o Not as much as before, myself liking to feel as though she was getting better, and not worse.
And I didn't have any feelings. xD People would say I was always so expressionless and empty. o-o While inside I had a million feelings a minute. xD
So basically...
People placed me. o-o So I played the role.
I'll still behave as such if I was in a group of people I don't feel comfortable with. ._.
I don't even know why I bothered babbling about that. xD I'd just. o-o Just thought about it on a walk yesterday. o-o
I'll walk, whenever I'm alone, with such a cold expression on my face. o.o It makes me think about what stories random passerbys may create. o-o Or maybe that's just... my insanities. xD
Hmm, well. ;-;
Maybe I'll go back to bed. ._.
I'm tired. Dx
And really don't have to motivation to stay up much longer. o-o
Twenty minutes!
I waited twenty minutes. o-o
Is that good? ._.
- Sakura Lied.
 Lyccea · Tue Apr 17, 2007 @ 11:20am · 0 Comments |
