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bluemystic788's Journal "Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength; loving someone deeply gives you courage."


bluemystic788
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Throughout one's life one makes many journies in which one discover's his or her innerself and what he or she wants in life. I've been down that route countless of times, and I thought I knew what I wanted in life. I've come to see everything in a whole new perspective and realized that there's more to it than I believed. I found a sweet boy with whom I fell for faster than I imaged. I thought I could hide my feelings and distant myself from him. The harder I tried, the faster I grew attached to him. Earlier in our relationship, around our second month, he told me that I had to open up. It was really difficult for me at that time since I just finished leaving a guy I dated for 3 years. He told me to treat it as if he was gonna leave soon or as if his time was being counted down. Almost towards the fourth month he tells me a week before my finals that he's moving this year. I felt really sad, but I see that he really wants to leave and be with his biological father. Even if it makes me miserable, I won't stop him or hinder the process because if he's happy I'll be happy as well. Although it may not show on the outside, I'll be happy on the inside. I really like him, one could almost say I fell in love for the 2nd time. I may not know what may lay ahead for me later on down the road, but when he moves out for sure in the summer of 2008 I know for a fact I'll miss him so much. Sometimes I just wished that life wouldn't be so complicated. out of all the guys I've been with and dated, he's been the only guy who was able to get into my head. I'm trying to adjust myself now to his absense, but its so hard. There are times where I want to be myself and show him a side that very few people have seen, but I end up supressing it because I'm afraid of getting hurt again. I understand that life is all about taking risks, but there are some things in which its harder to do. I really don't know what to do. I haven't told him how I feel or what I'm thinking because I don't want our relationship to interfere with his job, skool work, etc.





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Mizuki-chan_1707
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comment Commented on: Sun Sep 30, 2007 @ 01:49am
I just wanna say I'm here for you, because i know how it feels to try and bury your feelings in an attempt to make things easier for those you love. But you have to stay true to your feelings and let him into your heart if you truly care for him. The only way you can truly connect with someone is if you let them know your feelings as well. You may think that you are protecting both of you, but aren't you hurting on the inside for him? Good Luck with your romantic problems, but i think honesty about your feelings is the only way to live without regrets.

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comment Commented on: Sat Nov 10, 2007 @ 01:07pm
I'ma read your journal emo evil cool neutral twisted emo wahmbulance dramallama ninja burning_eyes cheese_whine dramallama rofl heart heart heart heart heart domokun domokun xp scream gonk crying redface smile biggrin xd stressed wahmbulance rofl rofl dramallama emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo rolleyes exclaim mrgreen mrgreen mrgreen mrgreen evil twisted cool wink heart heart heart heart heart



not leiam he quit
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clayclone
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comment Commented on: Fri Nov 16, 2007 @ 05:41am
rolleyes man, i can really relate to your problem because there is this girl i like heart but i dont wanna let her know. Theres this e-mail i got that really makes me think. My best friend likes her too eek . i just dont know wat to do. stressed xp just full of mixed emotions. theres more to the story message me for more. arrow


comment Commented on: Sat Jan 26, 2008 @ 06:24pm
That is so sad and cute.. Be strong That's the way to go^^



Asaka Katusko
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Photographer Teddo
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comment Commented on: Thu May 29, 2008 @ 08:46pm
i would take care of you like no other man would. im here for you if you ever need somone to talk to even though you don't know me. we'll chat somtime. i just want you to know that your not alone and i would do anything to help you steal a smile back from these harsh times your having.


comment Commented on: Thu Jul 31, 2008 @ 08:25pm
wow that was deep heart biggrin



samiz16
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raindancerfromheaven
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comment Commented on: Sun Aug 03, 2008 @ 10:02am
nice house
^_^
dont worry love is love and it should finde a way through the darkness
(chessy yes but wonderfull!!!)
lol


comment Commented on: Mon Aug 18, 2008 @ 09:15pm
r u ok. your room is really nice n hate to hear about the guy. crying crying crying



lildu9
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Physc0
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comment Commented on: Sat Dec 06, 2008 @ 05:48pm
want to be frieands? cool


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