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It's a official, and I've been knowing it forever.
I live in a house of emotionally disturbed idiots.

My mom and my sister got into a fight sometime today. I don't know what it was about, but I'm aware of the happenings the happened afterwards.
My sister went outside and sulked on the ground, and now my mom's all pissed for practically no reason. My sister's pretending I don't exist right now, and I think she's trying to push her feelings away, while, at the same time, being emo about what happened.
The girl needs to know when to shut-up and when to speak. She also needs to get her priorities straight. But I guess it's not entirely her fault though. She's actually clinically emotionally disturbed, but still, she can learn when to speak and get priorities straight. Her "condition" is in no way affecting those things.
Maybe someday she'll learn how good she really has it, and be able to stop worshipping anime, manga, and video games to realize that's it's they are the very reason the we and most other folk don't like to spend much time around her, and find another hobby for her to enjoy.
In retrospect, it's anime, manga, and video games that are the only thing that causes her own disturbances. Along with the computer and e-friends.
What do ya know... the very thing she loves is what's causeing the things that she hates about herself, and is hurting her.

My mother is also has the "condition", though probably not as bad. It can still sometimes make her a bit annoying though. I'm surprised she hasn't seemed to noticed that her and my sister actually have a lot in common, personality-wise.
I believe that my mother was born in the wrong era. I mean, she must have gotten her believes and opinions from the 17-1800s. She also seems to have a bit of superiority complex when it comes to her children. She seems to believe that, no matter the situation, she must be in control and be correct about anything that we bring up. It's actually one of the reasons we don't see eye to eye about happenings and the world. I do believe she thinks I'm stupid. Whenever I try to discuss or debate, she either A) Pulls the "it's my opinion" card. B) Tries to lie about vague sources where she supposedly got the information, and C) has been known to use scare tactics and bribes. Today, she's angry about my sister picking a fight with her, which is understandable as she is a mother and this is her child. I suppose it's also understandable that she would be angry for a long time, however, it isn't necessarily healthy and she should understand by now that stuff like this is bound to happen.
She flicked cigarette ashes on the floor and fixing her some popcorn, and said "What the ******** does it matter?" Tomorrow, and maybe even sometime today, she will look at the ashes on the floor, and remember why the ******** it matters.
About a week from now, no one will even remember today.

As for my step-father, I don't really know a lot about him.
It's not that I don't like him, I'm just a tad bit shy around him, for one reason or another that I don't know.
I believe, however, he's trying to mask the feelings from himself that he no longer loves us as he did when we first met. After all, we've ruined his life.
My sister put him in charges of child molestation and can be a total b***h/demanding child.
I'm "distracted" from work, have a big ego, and I'm gay. All are things that he must have a hard time accepting in people. Plus, I'm not exactly the ideal son for a father.
My mother has become distant from him and I think he feels it sub-conciously. On top of that, she and my sister can have identical personalities, and we've already went over my sister.
Must be hard to be the mis-understood, tired, old, fed-up-with-life, money conservative man of the house.

But there is a bright side. A ray of hope, if you will.
We are most happiest when me and my sister are apart, and my mother and step-father do things they both enjoy together.
In a few short years, I'll be leaving this house, and me and my sister won't even be in the same house, and my ego, "distractions", and homosexuality will no longer be present.
Yep, there's hope for these people, and me, yet.
But...
... these people have to hold on for just a few more years.
I pray these people can survive just a few more years.

Please Momma, Daddy, Sarah... stay strong for just a few more years.