Somehow, it seems like I have finally opened my eyes and realized everything that goes on in the world [socially] It's like being in a theater of you watching everyone else and seeing how childish and horrible things are. Relationships between friends and ruined because of guys and/or girls, words being used in a very horrible way, reaction the the most idiotic things, and stupidity. Especially stupidity.
People are so....so weird. Just watching everyone makes you think about everything. I feel like im stuck in a generation of people that I can't relate to either because I've grown out of that childish phase or maybe I'm just really lame [?]
I finally care about getting an education more than ever because I am now planning for my future [I'm trying to be in the top 5% in my school to get to a certain college] [i'm 14] and I'm glad I don't really care much about guys or girls as much as I use to. I no longer have to say "Oo he's cute. Do you think he'll like me?" or "After this guy, I'ma go out with this other guy" blah blah blah. I finally have someone that likes me for me and I'm sure I'm not going to "exchange" him soon.
I have a new "thing" in my life that I'm trying to learn about. I'm beginning to understand the whole God thing. I was an atheist and let me tell you now, that was the most fun I've had in my fourteen years of living. But now I've settled and started doing good and now... for once in my fourteen years of atheism, I'm starting to feel good.
I've started making new friends and I'm glad I got rid of the one's that put me down and took advantage. They suck anyway [PALOMA] My new friends make me feel like a person and I am very glad to have them.
This is basically God's way of giving me a fresh start. smile
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