It is over. Razaera is alone again. And this time through my own decision. But a decision prompted by a realization, a realization of a lie, a realization that a year of my life has been thrown away. I am single again. This time I make it definite. Noone else shall have the honor of calling me "theirs" again. I may be touched, I may be loved... but I do not know if I shall love back, and I certainly shall not bind myself to another again so freely. I tried to hang onto innocence and the hope that perhaps somewhere in Gaia some good still exists. That hope was shot away this past weekend. For if the closest people to your heart turn out to be liars... what more of the others? There is no more time, no more room, to be idealistic. I should have indulged my suspicions a little more. Alas, that I didn't! For then some hurt might have been averted, had it been sooner, and the attachment not so great!
You were everything, everything, that I wanted. We were meant to be, supposed to be, But we lost it. All the memories so close to me Just fade away… All this time you were pretending… So much for my happy ending.
AngelRaz · Mon Apr 30, 2007 @ 12:33pm · 2 Comments |